FIN.

i've moved to here: www.ethernotes.co.uk

music

tonight, a secret. heavan or las vegas. not many records are as beautiful as this. todays picture is of a homeless mans home. 

i considered writing

yesterday i shot two slides of film. a girl in a red dress on a chair and off a chair. this meant carrying lots of things, including a person over nettles. later, tennis. later, the next generation. a police officer just walked past. i will work tomorrow and then after half term. this may not be enjoyable or it may be - but it will add weight to my wallet. i continue to search. i will worry about my eyes. i bought some flowers. they sit on the kitchen table, close by to a masterpiece. they are red and white. 

i decided i would try to become more healthy and went running for 1.5hr and injured my hip. lack of use, bad technique or weak joint? i hope it is the first and that i can use it soon. 

i considered writing. i have not written in some time. i need to write stories. written and directed by... these are some of the best. oh and i need to find a location for a portrait. i want some white bits in the background. bits of plant.

upon the podium

recently ive been trying to make new images in the outside and in the studio. but without going forwards. the results have been perfectly reasonable but just not substantial enough for me to be excited by them. perhaps im getting bored by photography again or perhaps im just making photography boring for me. what excites me about making photographs is spotting little secrets. the story of a boy doing this or that. the extraordinary ordinary events of everyday. a place im not comfortable or familiar with. insecurities bring wonder and wonders. ive come across a problem and that is that im seeing everything i find pleasing as a new challenge. better me. and i go to work to try and get close to the magic of a particular set of images. and im finding that i can get close. close enough for me to gain confidence. but its not at all satisfying. its not my work. it doesnt excite me. but i feel i should continue in this way because its more viable. i always said i could never make work in england. i think whats true is that im not involved in what i do here. or at least ive not found a way to be yet. note: eurovision is on but silent. i just saw some amazing visuals from the russian entry. beautiful. but j. this thing is awful. work is on my mind a lot but i dont want to write about it. 

today i decided to try painting. my first attempt was pointless. i enjoyed the second one. i painted only until my brush ran out of paint from the first dip. i found a leaf and made some marks. its shown above. the images below are 1. of my right hand after painting. 2. i made a golden apple for a photograph - this is it.

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holy spirit

please save me and please provide for me. take away my anger. give me confidence. give me strength. inspire me. 

star maker

recently i saw two amazing films. tropical malady - an art house film from thailand and paprika, an animation from japan. i made a photograph which i may call the gift. i would like to make several more but need to find people to photograph. i would like further information. i was thinking about making a photograph by moonlight and so tried several things this evening. i came across a star making machine. 

05-09

one of the first images i shot of my wife in 2005. we both appear in this photograph. today ive been organising photographs to send far away and editing a report. i dont know where to send it. so it shall probably be wasted. i titled an image boy in water. its an old set of words i used for a short or long time that came from a dream of floating in silver cloud water. it was the most comfortable place. soma fm for this evening. sleep time.